Is it awful that after one day back in school, I'm already burnt out again? Effffffff. Also, I rather liked 97.9 degrees. Can we please go back to that, Body, instead of this slow but steady climb to reclaim the standard 102 of the past week? Buuuh.

And Medicine, I'd appreciate it if you made me feel better without the nausea/vomiting fluorescent yellow part.

I'm not sure what is wrong with me, but I've been feeling so needy and clingy lately. I'm dying to hear that I'm not so easily forgotten. I blame it on feeling so weak and useless while everyone else seems to have a lot to do. Whatev. Man the fuck up, à la Bright.

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Chinese has been surprisingly busy during my absence. A chapter of homework, studying, mid-term on Thursday, oral presentations on Friday, and three dialogues to record in the language lab (which is consistently around fourteen degrees and always smells of acetone. I'm not really sure why you need to know that, but just in case.). Also this week!: Japanese mid-terms, conversation and written; French mid-terms (?? - I missed cheese day because of my sick! RAWR!); dramaramarama (I have no idea what is going on in that class). OH GAWD.

As the good, procrastinating college student I am, Japan Night > studying. But then back for some serious Chinese + medicine + cartoon action.

Just three more days until spring break! Times of cosplay and people and not!disease, of picnics and dancing and jury duty! HUZZAH! (except that last one, mebbe)

Okay, really, it's been over a week, body. You can go back to being normal temperature now. Effffff. I really can't miss any more school, so no matter what I'm going to be at my classes for the rest of the week. I think I can last for four days.

One of the worst parts about all of this is that I feel like I've been eating non-stop without being able to exercise at all. Blaaah. And I haven't achieved anything cosplay-wise. Spring Break motto: If I'm not sleeping (or in jury duty), I am working. RAWR.

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I really hope I'm not slammed too hard with make-up work. It doesn't seem like I should be, but maybe my teachers had some surprises that aren't in their syllabuses.

About the only thing I've accomplished aside from keeping up with homework has been finishing a re-reading of Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. Not going to write a rambling review, but I will say it felt different the second time around. I found myself sympathizing far more with Dolores, but H.H. will always be monstrous and wonderful. Nabokov's writing is gorgeous (I'd really like to read his works in Russian someday), and it was nice not to have to consult a dictionary for all of the French bits. Mostly it made me miss my bfflolz. Aside from sleep, you are the only distraction I am allowed from costuming over the break, honeybabes.

Also, we went to see the new Alice movie on Saturday. It was great to see people again, even briefly. Cody put together a great Mad Hatter costume and was bombarded by teenage girls asking for photos with him. XD The movie itself was entertaining and very, very pretty. I love the actors' performances for the most part, mainly Mia Wasikowska (fun name!) and Helena Bonham Carter.

Buuuuh. I'ma go take some more meds and catch some sleep.

Soooo, it looks like I'll probably be missing class for at least tomorrow and possibly Friday. After sleeping so hard with the aid of Benadryl on Monday night, I was feeling a lot better yesterday afternoon. Now, after going to almost all of my classes for the day (my last one is at four thirty, and I am going to it, too), I'm back to wanting to die. At least it's closer to the normal sickly me who doesn't want a living being within a three mile radius rather than the whiny, needy thing I was all weekend.

It's missing a lot of class, but it's class I would probably miss anyway that will now be excused since I'm going to try to get in to the Indian hospital, huzzah. We'll see how that goes. Back-up appointment can be made with Tony (meeeeh) and more debt can be racked up (huzzah), but I need to get over whatever this is.

ANYWAY. First little duet skit thing successfully performed today. If there is one thing I want to get out of this drama class, it's speaking louder and getting rid of my meek voice. Ugh. But the skit went well enough for two medicated students.

And I've been slightly productive. I have the base for Eelai's thigh hose things cut out of cardboard. I need to go get some duct tape, but I guess that can wait until I've got them curved and set and am sure that I don't need to butcher as much as I think I do. What a fun medium~ Now just to get my head out of the clouds and keep a good work pace. I'm glad I no longer have to worry about a steam punk outfit or Shadow Prince Utena for now. I've got enough I'm procrastinating on as it is. 8U

...like that French paper I should be writing, oh dear.

( the cryptic introspection! she never sleeps! )


Seems sad, but I'm not really. I get like this with antihistamines in me. And it doesn't count as freewriting, so it gets to stay in this journal. Hahaaa, is it awful that I can only think of a certain gloom and doom friend? That's okay, I'm just as moody as that francophile sometimes. :P

Gross: sweating through your sheets during the night. Blaaaaah. I have a test in Japanese today and a French paper I should be writing, but I don't even care. I'm going to hide under my blankets and read/watch anime/do other lazy stuff until Leadership. Meeeeeh.

Uggghhh, I hate being sick. A couple nights ago I developed a bad fever out of nowhere, the kind that makes you cold no matter how many blankets are on you. I felt like I could curl up in a ball and die, and I've felt awful for the past two days. My eyes are so hot, but everything else is constantly freezing. Baaaawwww.

It makes me want to ignore the things I need to get done. I wanted to work on a bunch of stuff this weekend, but I haven't had the energy to do hardly anything. I stepped in for a couple of dances at Lolashly's practice and felt a little better for it (her touch has ~*healing powers*~, ooh, aah), but afterward I felt like I could have fallen asleep on her couch.

I feel so useless like this. Go awaaaayyyyyyy.

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This weekend, I have managed to replace Chad's measurements and dismantle a water gun to see if I could use that sort of mechanism for Eelai. I'd have to buy a pretty powerful water gun for it to work the way I want it to. It would be such an awesome touch (it would thrill me to death, anyway) to have some dihydrogen monoxide action. HMMM.

Whatever. This week, no freaking slacking. I've got to get on all of this stuff. But for now, Dr. Pepper and rest. Meeeeh.